It’s October! October is for cool, crisp mornings, colorful leaves, getting out the winter clothes, celebrating Little A’s birthday, and for remembering. It’s possible there should be a trigger warning around here, although I don’t have any particularly sad stories to share.
October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month (as well as Breast Cancer Awareness Month and about a dozen more.) I have lost pregnancies, three of them, but two were very early and the other was anembryonic (blighted ovum,) meaning there was never a baby in any form. That one was caught, and handled, between 9 and 10 weeks. I have no lost babies to remember this month, just lost dreams. I know many women who are not so lucky. It is to those women, and the many who will suffer pregnancy loss sometime in their lives, that I am dedicating my little projects this month.
I am going to try to make at least one, little, item every day. At the end of the month I will donate them to a hospital to give to the parents of babies who are born too soon. I started today by making a small blanket and two tiny, tiny hats. The blanket took a little bit of time, but was much less emotional, for me, than making the hats. They are tiny.
The patterns are from the site Mamma That Makes, and they are designed for babies lost at 14 to 16 weeks. Her site has many wonderful baby patterns, from super tiny to newborn size. The larger ones could be made for healthy preemies and newborns, too.
The hats hit home kind of hard because at the beginning of the second trimester in my pregnancy with Miss C we thought for a few weeks we might lose her. Thankfully, we were some of the lucky ones. Her health scare turned out to be nothing and she was born full term and very healthy. But, as I made the little pink bonnet, my way too vivid imagination saw her wearing it. My heart goes out to the mother to whom it, and everything I make this month, will be given.
I won’t update my progress every day, probably once or twice a week.
Sorry for the melancholy post.